Things have been so busy lately that I feel like I am spinning my wheels. Do you ever have a time in your life where you just feel like you are not moving forward? Where your brain just won’t work? Well, I’m there right now….for the first time in a long time I feel frozen. I am a really positive person and I always focus on moving forward, even if it is just by an inch or so at a time. But since we have moved, the forward movement has slowed down
to a halt a bit. Not for husband or the girls, but for me. I am working on building my design business, getting my website ready to launch, setting up photo-shoots, giving a new face to my blog, networking and attending design events, but I feel almost frozen, like I can’t even move….when it comes to our new house.
For me, moving into a new house that was put together by a consultant in the builder’s design center has been very stressful. At least with a resale, if you don’t like the cabinets, there isn’t the guilty feeling in your stomach. I don’t want you to think I am ungrateful….I’m not. I feel blessed by GOD everyday and have a wonderful, supportive husband, two beautiful daughters, and a great new house….which isn’t always so great, because it’s not what I would have selected. The dogs have destroyed the oak wood floors, the carpet is already starting to show wear from traffic, the closets are huge but have no useable storage, and on top of that, we have furniture that doesn’t really work in some of the rooms, rooms with no furniture, and I am frustrated that I have a budget and can’t do everything at the same time. All of this makes this Anglican girl feel really guilty pretty much all of the time….which is probably why I feel stuck.
When I work with clients, I walk into their spaces, access their surrounding, talk with them in an in-depth way that I can really find out what makes them tick so I can help them design a space that is just for them. The problem is, I can’t do that for myself right now (I talked about this here) and I am making myself crazy over it! I have a friend who I know would ask me why am I doing this to myself, that I am a great designer, that it is all within my control, and I should put in the relaxation CD he gave me, which I don’t listen to often enough…..thank you by the way….it always relaxes me!!
So, I am going to do a little of this,
and go to the Spring Market at High Point. I am sure I will come back refreshed and rejuvenated, with lots of inspiration and ideas! Hope you’re having a great day!